real talk

Honestly these days have been great to me. These years, and months I couldn't be more Thanful for. Ive learned so much within my senior year than I have throughout my entire high school career, thats a bit sad I know.
 My next step is college. Its scary to know that I will be on my very own, I think I will be okay im just worried. I will meet new people and have a fresh start and I am excited.
I will miss all those familiar faces but honestly Inot that much. I will miss coming home to the house I have lived in for 7 years. I will miss being comfortable.
Its time to start busting out of my shell and expanding my social life.
 Im ready for this, and I can do it.
Real talk.

I Remember:

I remember when my brother told me to have a good day, and I did.
I remember running around with both my brothers wearing 5 pairs of underwear on top of my head.
I remember the first dog I ever had;  Rosco.
I remember when I first met my niece, she brought life to everyone.
I remember when I danced.
I remember my first day of junior high, I will never forget the outfits I would wear with the purple pants.
I remember the worse day of my life.

I remember my aunt.
I remember the pure chaos of the world, and how it all stopped suddenly.
I remember my best friends.
I remember being young, and feeling young.
I remember what I wanted to be when I grew up. Completely opposite of what I want to do now.

I remember the first time I got my goldfish.
I remember watching Lizzie Mcguire and Thats So Raven.
I remember my first nightmare; the ghost that popped out of the dryer.
I remember wanting to grow up, now I regret it.
I remember when my brother told me he loved me, I wonder if he knows how much of an impact that made on my life.
I remember when my parents told me how proud of me they were for going to college.
I remember being proud of myself.

Newspaper Blackout

Tulips:

I keep your true colors, it's tough but beautiful. 

Roots:

Fires do good for the root.

Time: 

It's emotional, the years express themselves to teach us who was there. 

Mask:

You probably mask pain. Let me tell you something, you come through to me.

Stars:

Bowing to the stares, the stars whispered-"release your inner happiness." 

I sleep:

I sleep sitting on the crash. 

Okay With It

The other day, during lunch, I was sitting in a hallway by myself. Just alone, lonely, and quiet.

          I was okay with that. 

Hearing the chit-chat from the loudest voices to just the slightest whispers around the corner. 

My Ipod was dead, and my headphones were all tangled.

        

 I was okay with that.

I wrote in my journal, about 4 pages.

Throwing my thoughts out, left and right, on lined white paper. Anything, and everything that I could possibly think of. 

A young man walked passed me and said- "Hello" 

"Hello..." I responded shyly with a smile of shock, with a little touch of awkward, from the rare niceness.

"Your smile, wow, its beautiful." He said.

"Thank you." I said.

I accepted the compliment and, 

I was okay with that. 

Instructions

How to be happy:

1. Wake up at whatever time pleases you.
2. Turn on your favorite movie, or favorite music and turn up the volume, then jump into the shower.
3. While getting dressed, say 2 positive things about yourself. (It may not sound like much, but those 2 things could change your entire day.)
4. Do your hair
5. Smile at yourself in the mirror
6. Put on your favorite kind of shoes.
7. Feed your goldfish.
8. Kiss your dogs good-bye
9. Hug your mother. 
10. Get into your car,start the engine, and drive to get yourself some iced tea.
11. Come home, get shit taken care of. 
12. Get your 9 hours
13. Sleep

How to be unhappy:

1. Sleep in, so you are late, having to rush getting ready.
2. Listen to the panic of your heart, beating so fast from the stress, thanks to step 1. 
3. Look in the mirror and say 10 bad things you think about yourself.
4. Don't brush your hair, just throw it into a pony tail.
5. Pick whatever shoes are convenient.
6. Feed your goldfish later...
7. 8-9, (how to be happy) you cant do because you have to run out the door which makes your day even worse. 
8. Forgot your keys, run inside, get into the car, start the engine, no tea for you slacker.
9. Go home and procrastinate, as well as whine to your mother about why the day was so bad.
10. Get your 6 hours
11. Worry about the next day...no sleep for you. 

Pfft. 

I sit by flowers that never get watered.

Just Checkin

Hey guys I was just wondering how my blogs are doing? 

I don't know if they are too weird or way too personal. I know the last couple have been. 

I hope that my swearing doesn't offend some of you, but I feel the need to swear to get to my point across.

Mr Nelson if you are reading this, please comment on it. I really feel as though if you comment on it, its like I won a gold star.

As well as my classmates please let me know on comments as well. I feel like I am doing some what okay? 

I look at my comments from people a whole bunch, and it makes me feel good. 

I will start commenting on more people's blogs as well. 

Thank you for reading my blogs errrbody...

Just checkin,,, 

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